Fool and Lost;

"Fool and lost. Yeah, I'm lost in this harsh reality. I was a fool, To let you in, But not dumb enough, To let you go."
Till the day we realize, we are just a fool; a person who acts unwisely or imprudently; a silly person, and lost; denoting something that has been taken away or cannot be recovered. We are just too late. Too late to save ourselves.
Yeah, I am a fool in love, to let him took my heart roughly; hate it but never give it back.I am lost in this world. Prudentially, I was the one who is guilty. Because he never liked me, nobody likes me. Till the day I kiss the death, everybody still gonna hate me.
You said I was lying because I said that nobody loves me. No, I know myself. I am a person. A bad person. I have no good looks, no good heart, no good body, no good brain. You say I was being ungrateful, I didn't meant to. I just telling you the truth. The ugly truth.
You said I was a pathetic. Because I keep bothering you. Couldn't you see, that I am needing? Begging for so much more, than you could ever give.  I was bullied, I was shackled, I was stressed, I was forced. And that's the definition of lost. Nobody ever tried to help me. But they still condemn me for releasing tensions. 
Sleep? yeah. That's the worst that I can do. Cut? I shouldn't have to. Because my hurted heart hurts more than that cut. So just let me hypnotize; ran far away from the world. You have no rights to stop me.
Special people? They just want me to be successful. To be a doctor, an engineer and whatever. But do they know, I am sufferin, from mental pain. Who could bear being bullied at the age of 6, who could bear being force for 5A's, who could bear being unloved. Who could?! I have gone through it all. So, when I stand on top, I just need to remember, this is all because the help from me and God.
Tell me, who loves me. Because I know I am hated by all. She loves seeing me dropped out of your love zone, she loves it when I fail. She loves it with all of heart's content, seeing you hating me. Uh, I'm suffocated. Can take it no more, Because the one I love, never gonna loves me..
The author, sincerely,